Cipriano Martinez | @ciprianom79
For many years I was under the notion that we all have total control of our own lives. Now this might be true for many of us and many of us may feel we need control to make decisions that gear our futures. But what if I told you that being in control can cause unwanted ramifications? Don’t get me wrong -- I understand in being the spiritual leader of my home that I have to make many decisions. But are these decisions based on my own control or on a control greater than myself?
The very first principle in a Christ-centered program called Celebrate Recovery is, “Realize I am not God”. Read that slow a few times out loud. Many times we take it upon ourselves to play the role of God in our own lives. When we do this we take control. I recall asking God a few times to “take the wheel” and telling Him that I am giving Him total control of my life. Hours don’t even go by before I realize that I am a back seat driver or even driving myself again.
Principle One of CR goes on to say, “I admit that I am powerless to control my tendency to do the wrong thing and that my life is unmanageable.” You may say, "Hold on, my life is not unmanageable!" It more than likely is if you are playing the god of your life.
There are many different hurts, hang-ups, and habits that affect our day to day lives. These struggles -- we all have them. We know them by different names but we all have them. We can try to change them or get rid of them and use a lot of energy and time in doing so, only to soon realize they're still there. The control we think we have is not going to fix our lives. Only God can. Jesus knew how difficult this is. He said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19: 26)
It is only when we realize that we are not God and admit that we are powerless to control our tendencies to do the wrong thing and that our lives have become unmanageable that we begin to see progress. By doing this we give God total control of our lives and we stop playing the role that belongs to Him.
The bottom line is that it’s okay to not be okay. You don’t have to hide your pain and then try to fix it all by yourself. God wants to take care of this for you just let Him be the God of your entire life. Jesus said it:
“My purpose is to give life in all its fullness” John 10:10 TLB
Stop playing. Start living.
Cipriano Martinez is the ministry leader of Celebrate Recovery at Highland Baptist Church in Clovis, NM, as well as the CR State Representative of Eastern New Mexico and West Texas. He is blessed to be clean and sober for 9 years and counting. He is happily married and has 5 kids ranging from high school to diapers. He enjoys sharing his life with others, golf, and spending time with his family, and also feels a strong calling to vocational ministry. You can contact him via twitter @ciprianom79.